Well, no one is online, so i guess i can only Dota abit later. Stephanie isn't replying my sms-es and other than dota and stephanie, i don't really do much on a Friday night. lol -.- So i decided to post. (Getting flamed on my own blog is so malu lol)

Today was okay i guess. School is boring and i was nearly late again, as usual. Took a cab with Jolene and Jacquelyn from like cck. So it was like $4. Nvm la, its nothing compared to getting a fair conduct. So i guess its worth it (:

Class today was generally okay, but no one seemed to believe that i sprained my ankle and thought that i actually ponned school yesterday. but lol its true! I just didn't want to wear slippers because i didn't want people to keep asking about the swelling lol.

After school i played some basketball while waiting for Steph even though i had a sprained ankle. I could still make shots though. hahah (: Then we had lunch together and went to get Hannah's gift together. (Hannah is my sister fyi) Its her birthday tomorrow. Well then we studied! At Teckwhye mac, with Dijon Peisi and Xueli. Well, not exactly study but dijon kinda gave us tuition for physics, he seriously needs to be paid lol. Then we just crapped the hours away. I walked her home and since then she has only sent me like 5sms-es in like 3 hours! Her tv more important than me la. Nvm later i Dota can ignore her! Well i guess i kinda just posted for the sake of posting :x

& I Love ya Stephanie. I had a great time today. (:

It's Sunday! The best day of the week! (: 8 hours more.

Stephanie: Joel thinks i'm the hottest girl on Earth! Even though i am only 152cm tall!

Firstly, I want to congratulate the committed chairperson of dance, Stephanie on getting Gold for SYF! :D I guess its something that they really really deserved. Cos, knowing the amount of hours they put into practise throughout the holidays, all the way until days before syf, i guess i can safely say i could tell how much they wanted to get Gold.

I'm happy for her, really. I've watched the progress from the start until the end. The first few days of syf preparation, she was complaining on the amount of steps, the weird song and how little time they had. Soon, she was complaining about the amount of practise and how little time she had for other things (e.g Me) hahah at the end, she was STILL complaining on how tired and stressed she was. Stupid girl is always complaining (: but well when today finally came, as i watched her jump about and blabbering nonsense on hearing the piece of good news, i really felt very happy too (but i didn't know how to express myself). She has come a long way and i must say i really admire her. Very hardworking (Fyi: she is so adorable.) Haha i must emphasise again on how undeserving i am of a girl like her >.<

Secondly, I finally realised why i was in such a lousy mood today. I realised how dull my life is. No certificates, no recognition, no achievement, nothing. No matter how much i hate to admit it, Mr Kong was right i guess. I really am under-achieving. I really am fucked up. At the end of secondary school, i'm nothing. Basketball team was kicked out of west zone during the first round. I'm at the back of the class in terms of studies. Teachers don't see any good in me. The worst thing is i'm not making any effort to change that. Gah, i've fucked my life up. In sec 1 and 2 all i did was to flirt and play. No improvement after that beacause I played my sec3 year away. Now in sec4 i'm not any better. I don't really want to elaborate because its going to be a really long list. I guess i really am a hopeless case...

Whoa its been ages. Hello people :D

The holidays are zoom-ing past and i realised that i haven't had enough fun! Sigh, why do the good times pass so quickly whereas the bad and the sad just linger around and refuse to leave.

I was actually looking forward to the holidays, until the time-tables were released. Damn spoiler la! @$%#!&! I had school every morning! PLUS Stephanie had Dance practise everyday from 1 to 5 la. All hope of an enjoyable March holidays were shattered.

However, i still managed to meet her everyday and i'm content. Even though its just about half an hour walking her home, i guess its better than nothing huh (:

Anyway, did you know XiaoQiang means cockroach?

Everyone except me seems to know. -.- Oh well, at least i have Tony to be my company. (:

Gah i don't really know what to post about. Pretty much posting for the sake of posting.

Its the way you're so genuine, I fell in Love.
Its the way you love and care for your family, I fell in Love.
Its the way you cherish our relationship, I fell in Love.

We lost yesterday. 31-37. Cckss vs Wwss. I am especially demoralised not because i didn't get to play but because i played like shit. And to me, actually, it feels much worst if everyone on your team trusted you to bring victory but instead you went out there and made a fool of the team. I didn't go support Joselin at mediacorp yesterday. Simply because i no longer had the mood to scream and cheer after such a disappointing performance. Wencong, Bengjie, Yanming and I practised until 7+ almost 8. I admire this group of players because these are the ones that have been the ones willing to practise throughout this basketball season. And watching their effort pay off, i feel very proud of them, really. And consequently i felt ashamed.

At home i didn't really have the mood to finish my work and i just wanted to go to bed and feel better the next day. However, thanks to Stephanie Lam Hui Juan who persuaded me to wake up early to finish my homework the next day.

So at 5am or should i say 4.55am to be exact. My phone rang. And i crawled out of bed and got ready for school. Thanks to that, by 6am, we were already studying at Macdonalds. I felt really fortunate to have Stephanie around. Even though she kind of forced me out of my comfort zone, she too stepped out of her own comfort zone to wake up early with me and show her support. For that, i really wanna thank you Stephanie. (: Thanks for making me realise how childish i was acting. I guess i really am under- achieving.

The way your sweet smell lingers when you leave the room
Stories you tell as we lay in bed all afternoon
I dream you now, every night, in my mind is where we meet
And when I'm awake staring at pictures of you asleep
(Part Of The List - Ne-yo)

Okay. After some persuasion from some people. I finally agreed to do this questionair/ survey.

1.Who is the last person who tagged you?
Its actually some Vietnamese girl. But since there are questions linked to this one.
I'll take the one behind her. Kienkiat.

2.The relationship between you and her/him?
Very good friends. Brothers in arms!(inside joke) LOL

3.Your 5 impressions of her/him?
Good with words
Nice Listener
Attractive? (Never short of girlfriends!)
Lazy
Humorous
Pubstar!(another inside joke)

4.If she/he become your enemy, you will?
I doubt we'd become enemies. Cos me and him don't quarrel. But! I'd definitely
try to salvage the relationship.

5.What will you say to the person whom you like very much?
Lol i'm not sure. Different things to different people?

6.The characteristic(s) you love about yourself is... ?
Calm? I don't get angry easily.

7.The characteristic(s) you hate about yourself is... ?
Quite proud at times.

8.For the person whom I hate, you say...?
I don't know. Never really hated anyone.
"Get out of my life!" maybe?

9.What do people feel about you?
Kienkiat- Don't get angry easily. Treat people nicely. Fuckface -.-
Jarrold - Honest and Humble. I don't get influenced by others. I help whenever someone needs me. Initiative. A great man that everyone would enjoy being with.
Jeydee - I'm quite good. Always give jiaobin and show fuckface lol.
Shanbei - Friendly and Funny. Helpful and Caring to all my friends. Very honest and trustable.
Shy at times. Courageous too.
Stephanie- Considerate and Helpful. Devoted. Rather shy.
Tessa - Funny in a serious way. Egoistic
Fiona - A person that people can feel comfortable with. Tactless at times. Bad friend because i dao sms-es. Lazy

10.Who you have a crush on?
A girl :D

11.The most ideal person you want to be is... ?
Someone who people know they can count on.(definitely not there yet)

12.Pass on this quiz to 5 person :(Don't do if you don't feel like doing.)
1)Jarrold
2)Kienkiat
3)Fiona Lam
4)Stephanie
5)Jiaxian

13.If no.2 & no.3 were together,what will happened?
Haha. they don't know each other. They cannot be together! Cos Kiat has someone in mind.

14.Who does no.5 likes?DO I HAVE to answer that?
hahah. (don't kill me) Teo KienKiat!

15What colour does no.1 like?
He likes Orange i think.

16.Say something about no.3.
She thinks she'll never get married. But i know that she is more attractive than she thinks.

17.Who is no.2?
TeoKienKiat. A guy that loves shaking his ass. One of my bestfriends.

18.Talk about no.5.
YaoJiaXian. My good friend for 3 years. Someone i can really trust. Haha a very cute person ba

19.Who is no.1?
JarroldLim. My Bestbuddy for 3 years and still counting. The most devoted guy i've met.

20.Who is the sexiest person among the people?
Definitely JarroldLim! Cos he has no ass! :D

21.What colour does no.4 likes?
Blue!

22.Is no.4 single?
Uh huh. (:

23.What is your relationship with no.1?
Bestbuddies.

24.Is no.1 & no.3 best friends?
Nope! They don't know each other.

25.What is no.5's surname?
Yao

26.What is no.1's nickname?
Mr.Baobei. Babe. Tall guy. Stick-Insect. Hongster.

27.What things do you wish to say to no.3?
"Hope you're not angry with me anymore."

28.What you will do to help no.5?
Always being around to listen and give advice.

29.Who does no.1 admires?
ME!ME!

30.Where does no.1 lives at?
Jelapang

31.Does the 5 of them know who you likes?
Yeah. Its spreading damn fast.

32.What do you wish to say when you saw no.2?
You got a fuckface too!(scroll to question 9)


Anyway. I've been putting this off for quite a long time. But anyway here goes:
Stephanie! Stephanie! Stephanie! Stephanie! Stephanie! Stephanie! Stephanie!

Something i did/heard only just today gave me the inspiration to post. But i forgot what it was-.-

After much digging, i realised it was this 7 year old boy named Jovan. He died of Liver cancer on Saturday. He was only at the young age of 7 when diagnosed with terminal stage of liver cancer. I've heard many stories from my mom of how he endured the pain and of how everyone was hoping against hope that he may survive this adversity.

The family was a part of the church. Daily, they visited the boy, praying for a miracle.
Weeks past. A miracle happened. His condition escaped critical condition. However, it was still terminal. About a week or 2 later, his dad contracted chicken pox and unfortunately, spread the disease to his sickly son. Because of this undesirable occurance. The boys' condition worsened thus leading to his death on 061208.

Deaths occur everyday, every hour, every minute and maybe... every second? This may seem like just any other death, but his death was not in vain. While he was hospitalised, this boy was introduced to his ward-mate. A 2 year old kid which came in crying. Jovan did something that even many adults wouldn't have the strength to do. Jovan, in midst of all his pain, comforted the crying boy which was definitely nowhere near Jovans' pain. Saying, 'Baby, baby, don't cry!'

Thats all i've heard about Jovan.

Elyse(my kid sister) attended the funeral with my mom. She could tell that he no longer looked like himself. She came to me saying,' big korkor, the Jovan look so different. His colour change!' Obviously, she could not understand the ceremony because she is only 4 years old. But somehow i could tell that she knew, she wouldn't be seeing him anymore. Jovan had just become a memory to her. As a boy who used to sit beside her in childern's church.

This event got me thinking. Life is short and fragile. It really is. And after death, you become nothing but a memory. Your presence loses its influence, Your face can only be found imprinted on photographs unless you're some sorta superhero or superstar, you may find your face imprinted on coffee mugs or cereal boxes etc. Whats left is as they always say, your legacy. Jovan left his legacy as a very mentally strong, sweet and mature beyond his age.

Jovan taught Jarrold that life is short and that he shouldn't be wasting his time hanging around, waiting for something that may never happen but instead, live your life out LOUD!

I am inspired by this boy named Jovan.

Here is something cute that happened moments ago:
Elyse: Korkor, korkor! Just now, the hamster love me!
Joel : Huh? How?
Elyse: I put my hand here, here, here(different spots on the hamster cage) then she come and smell me you know. The hamster really love me!

hahah. Elyse is damn cute.